All Day Sickness Relapse & 1st Food Aversion

I know I promised to post the ultrasound pictures but I just haven't had the energy lately. I have had a ALL DAY sickness relapse the past week. I was hoping it was almost over for me but not so much. And none of my usual remedies are working! Great! I am only 2 weeks or so away from leaving the 1st trimester and joining the 2nd trimester. Hopefully I will be done then!!

I have my first real food aversion. Cheeseburgers or any burgers! The sight, thought or smell of them makes me want to vomit. Then I went to the grocery store and realized that it's all red meat too. So I guess I will be going red meat free and cheeseburger free until October. No big deal. However, if any were to eat a burger around me I may have to find another place to eat. Just thinking about it makes me want to lose my breakfast!

Everything is great!!!

Our appointment went really really good! We got to see the baby. It was much bigger, moving around and wiggling. It was also measuring 4 days ahead and the doctor put my EDD at 10/6/08.

I do have ultrasound pictures and I will scan them tomorrow and post them! Woo hoo!!!

Next Ultrasound in 3 days!!

Wednesday is our next ultrasound at 10 weeks! I am very excited (and nervous of course!). If this appointment goes great, we will be announcing to everyone!

Cross your fingers for a growing baby with a strong heartbeat!

All Day sickness easing up

It's getting better but not gone! Thank goodness!

ALL DAY Sickness is Kicking my Butt

Whoever said it was morning sickness is dead wrong. I have ALL DAY sickness. I feel crappy in the morning, great in the afternoon for about 2 hours and then crappy all night. I throw up at home but i have a hard time throwing up at work. The bathroom at work is a multi-stall bathroom and I just cant bring myself to throw up there. Always afraid of someone walking in. I much rather throw up in the comfort of my own bathroom.

So far I have tried everything to curve my sickness. Ginger Ale, airheads, lemon heads, jolly ranchers, crackers, peanut butter cookies, preggie pops. You name it. Sometimes certain things will work but later, they wont and I am back to the drawing board.

I am hoping that this will get better, really soon. Any suggestions for something I have not tried yet??

We Have A Heartbeat!!

Houston, we have a heartbeat! It was amazing, saw it right away! Such a relief after being in limbo for a week!

We are excited!! Hooray for a great outcome!! So amazing!!

Bloodwork is good!

I got my bloodwork back a few days ago and it looks good!!

1st beta: 41,617
2nd beta: 54,810

This time around, the betas aren't looking to double only because I will hit a plateau eventually. My progesterone is low so now I am on supplements I have to take vaginally every night.

We go back for our 2nd ultrasound today and are hoping to see a heartbeat! Cross your fingers for a strong heartbeat!!

I Want That

I was sitting in the ER waiting room. Across from me is this cute little boy, 2 years old at the very most. He couldn't make up his mind who he wanted. I want mom, no I want dad. Now I want mom, no wait, now dad. I couldn't help but think, I can't wait for that. I would give anything for that.

When I am back in the waiting room after being seen, there is this little girl about 3 years old. Cute little thing, must have cut her head because there was blood madded in her hair. She had long blond hair and bright blue eyes. She was wearing bright pink pajamas with feeties. Adorable, looked me when I was her age. Not that I want to have to go to the ER with my daughter but when I looked at her, I couldn't help but think, I want that.

I sitting in my OB's office. There were 2 large pregnant women rubbing their bellies. One looked uncomfortable and the other seemed to be enjoying her babies movements. I want that.

As I am waiting, a new mom walks in with her brand new baby boy. He was perfect and adorable. The ladies at the front were fawning over him. He couldn't be older than a month or two because the lady was in to have my OB sign something for her maternity leave. I can't believe how perfect he was. I want that.

A few minutes later, a woman walked in with a big baby carrier holding her daughter. I couldn't get a look at the baby, she was bundled up too much. But I am staring at the mom struggle with the big carrier. While it seemed to be a nuisance for her, I couldn't help but think, I would do anything to be in her position.

I am trying to keep as positive as possible. I went in for my second round of blood work today and now the long wait until Monday. I still feel terrible and under all of this sickness I still seem to have nausea and can't seem to finish any of my food. After taking a few bites, I am over it and feel icky. I guess I can still take those as great signs but the blood work is the crucial part and the only thing that will prove everything is okay. And everything is going to be okay! Right?

Pregnant Woman with Fever = No Good

I have had a fever since Wednesday night. This morning it was 101 then within a few hours 102. I went in to see the doc and by the time I got there it was down to 99.4. Then once I get home, it's back up to 100.6. I think maybe my thermometer is off. If my temp gets back up to 101, I have to go to the ER.

In addition to all of this, I have a cough, cold and congestion. The congestion was worse last night and this morning but better now. Why oh why is this happening now? Can't anything go smoothly?

With everything that happened yesterday, this just adds to it.

1st Ultrasound @ 6 Weeks (?)

Well, I don't know what to think. My sac measured 5w4d. The yolk sac was in there. She was a flicker but she said it also could be blood flow so she didn't want to say it was the heartbeat.

I am so scared. I don't know what to do with myself. She thinks I may have conceived later then I thought. But I am not sure if that's the case because if it was then that means I would have gotten my positive pregnancy test earlier than 10 days past ovulation.I know she is trying to be optimistic but it makes me wonder if she is blowing sunshine up my ass. I don't need sunshine, I need facts. I am repeating blood work today and Saturday. I will get those results on Monday. I also have another ultrasound next week to see if things are progressing.

I feel such mixed emotions. My Doctor seemed to think that everything will be okay but I can't help but be scared. Now I have to wait a whole week to see if everything is okay.

Please cross your fingers for me and this little bean. I need so bad for s/he to stick. I can't go through this again.

Impatience

If you know me very well, you know that I am not a patient person. I am definitely an instant gratification type of girl. Having to wait one more day to see our baby's heart is making me crazy. I am glad I am not working tomorrow, because if I was it would drag on! It's weird being so excited yet so scared at the same time. Randy and I are staying positive but secretly I am terrified! BUT I KNOW everything is going to be great!

The morning sickness has eased up today. Nausea wasn't as often as it had been the last few days. I am hoping this trend keeps up but if it doesn't, that's okay too.

Morning Sickness is on its way

For the past two days, I have been nauseated all day off and on. I am trying hard not to throw up because I am afraid to break the seal.

Don't get me wrong, I am welcoming everything. Surprisingly it makes me feel better and I take this as being a good sign. Especially since the ultrasound is in two and a half days....not that I am counting down or anything!!

Positive Thoughts

I got these from an online message board I frequent and these help me so much! I need to remain positive until we see our babies heartbeat next week!

--"Today I am pregnant and I love my baby."
--"I am pregnant until someone tells me otherwise."
--"My past does not dictate my future. A previous m/c does not mean I will have another m/c."
--"Just because something sad is happening to another, does not mean it will happen to you." We all know m/c and complications are not contagious!
-- "Hope does not make bad things happen" You cannot ‘jinx’ your pregnancy by creating a ticker, getting excited, or telling someone. Live in the positive!
--And this is the hardest one: "There is nothing I can do to prevent a m/c from happening. Worrying yourself sick doesn't prevent a m/c. And if (Gods forbid) it were to happen again, I know I will survive."

I need to memorize these and repeat them everyday!

1st Ultraound in 1 Week!

Valentine's Day is the day we hopefully will see the heartbeat of our little bean. Most people are looking forward to the day because it's fulled with love, roses and chocolate. We are looking forward to the day for the doctor's office, dildo cam (internal ultrasound device), and a little flutter on the screen.

Statistics say if there is a heartbeat at 6-7 weeks, your chances of miscarrying are 5%. That may seem low to most but not to others. I will be just over 6 weeks then.

So here I am one week away and that's all I can think about. I can't wait to see the little flutters of the heart on the screen. I can't wait to take home the ultrasound pictures and share them.

Cross your fingers for a healthy, strong heartbeat!!

5 Week Belly Picture

I feel kinda silly taking a 5 week belly picture but at least I can see almost where I started from. So here it is, funny because if you look closely enough, you can see the bloat forming above my pants! haha!! You have been warned!

I was a lot more bloated with the last pregnancy so I actually feel good this time around.